Alright. I've been planning to join the military since I was 13 and I just graduated high school. It's still what I want to do. I'm just freaking out a little bit. I've always been indecisive when it comes to career choices. There are so many different aspects of me, like the nice girl who wants to take care of orphans in Africa for the rest of her life or the kick butt side of me that wants to work for NCIS or something. (Not trying to sound like I have split personality, I'm just a bit worried I'm going to choose the wrong thing.) suddenly I've had this urge to just take a year off (a gap year I guess) and try to travel and work in another country or travel the us for work or something because I'm scared that I will end up like all the others where I'm from. Settling down and having kids, never seeing the world just doing what's expected by others in this town. I want to see the world and live my dreams! Maybe even live in another country eventually! I'm scared that if I go ahead and join the army, I'll like it a lot and want to stay active duty and I'll never get to do all the other stuff I want and I'll end up growing up and not having time to do this stuff and I know that might sound stupid. I just need advice I guess. Anyone know what I should do?