Arwen
2013-03-11 23:04:23 UTC
So far most of the problem is in expressive spoken language, not written stuff, but it is getting in the way of my doing interviews. I have to keep notes up on the screen while I do a phone interview, to remind myself of key words, but there's nothing to help me during a face-to-face interview, and I'm starting to look like an idiot struggling to find simple words - often a word I just said a minute earlier.
I was incredibly lucky (15%) to come out of my injury (subarachnoid hematoma) with only mild immediate effects, but I was told that because of my TBI I have a higher chance of Alzheimer's, and possibly suffer other memory and other mental capacity issues at an earlier age than most. I'm starting to suspect that my problems will be in expressive communications, and it seems to have begun. I'd rather go deaf or blind that to lose that skill, which is my greatest talent - and how I make my living!
I play memory games a lot, to try to keep as sharp as possible, and I'm pretty sure the major problem right now is only in the language center of my brain. I keep extensive notes to make up for some of the memory issues that I do have, but recently I have noticed that I am having more difficulty filling in the gaps in my notes - the word I didn't manage to write down, or identifying who said which quote.
I haven't told my editors what is happening yet. Legally they can't fire me for a disability, but a reporter who can't remember... ugh. I can't imagine going out on disability leave, or ending up living on SSI.
Unfortunately, I don't have medical insurance, so I can't get it checked out professionally.
Any ideas would be appreciated.